Ah, look at all the lonely people

I am an idiot.

Yeah, I can not make up my mind.

Love to be loved?

Sometimes i wish that i could just make up my mind at the right time so that in the end i dont up feeling miserably and alone.

性交しなさい

the sound of settling
finger twist and split
lying is the most fun a girl can have with her clothes on
my name is jonas
beating hearts baby
soul meets body
i want to be buried in your backyard
boys dont cry
love cats
interstate love song
tiny dancer
falling away from me
bohemein Rhapsody
drive
the middle
clocks
dead leaves and the dirty ground
wonderwall
champagne supernova
the world has turned and left me here
coin oparated boy
say it aint so
everlong
closer
somebody told me
we dreamt in heist
fix you
screaming infidelities
hands down
sweetness'
the seed 2.0
dance with the devil
it's tricky
mr brightside
maps
smells like teen spirit
byob
chop suey
cigaro
pin
Y CONTROL
ghost of a good thing
black hole sun
mickey mouse is dead x.x
walking with a ghost
faint
in the end
creep
bulimic
california
1979
i want you to want me
bodom after midnight
ohio is for lovers
words and guitar
disposable teens
institutionalized
good riddance
youth of the nation
don't speak
dope show
anything, anything
iris
a flavor house atlantic
devil in jersey city
elva

I hate my fourth fifth and six period! && my counselor is being difficult why cant i just be in the classes i want. all i have is six months left and i'm out.........so whatever! I was going to transfer our of my 1st period but i decided to stay because crystal transfered in. So it's kinda good now.
Hmm, yesterday i felt really numb. i hated it. today was bett

hmmmmmmmmmm yeah school is a drag.

i woke up at 11:40 this morning, and i felt like shit i didn't end up going to sleep until six because i stay up to watch the addams family <33 when i go back to school i'm not going to be able to get up on time, it doesn't sound good. last semester i had i combined total of 36 absences for both first and fourth because i cant seem to get up and go to school in the mornign i dotn get there until like nutrition break. fuuck! if i would have gone i would have gotten straight A's instead of the two C's i got in both those classes. HAHA.

So at around 5:30ish matt picks me up and we go pick up some cigs. a lil while later crystal comes and meets up with us and we go and watch the producers with brittany and her friends. by far one of the funniest movies i've seen, uma therma is fucking HOT! muahaha. <333











..........i'm glad i help you work out the problems you had and yeah don't worry i'll always be here for you <333

So for the past two weeks of winter break i've been looking for my nintendo 64 and i finally found it today. but, it didnt have the power cord or the cable that connects to the tv. so crystal kevin oscar and i decided to walk to game crazy to see if they had it. well it turns out that the damn system didnt even work. gahh! but whatever it was fun watching oscar walk the whole day with him damn sandals HAHAHHA!

When we got back crystal took him home and kevin and i stayed and wrote all the names on my valentines day cards. i dont feel like waiting until feb 14 so i'm going to celebrate it on monday. mhm yeah i'm cute <3
Then we danced to cute is what we aim for in the parking lot. yay!

i dont think im going to sleep i drank two enerygy drinks, starbucks, and i'm listening to the dresden dolls, they get me all 0.0! YAY!

ai, i don't update. everytime i remeber i have this thing i tell myself that i'll use it mor, but fuckign myspace like takes over my life, well not really. but sometimes. it gives me shit to do. fucking shit, i had an interview for hollywood video today. hopefully it went well. agh, i really dont want a job. i like being lazy and being suported by other people, it works well for me.

hmm, yeah. my life is pretty laid back right now. all a job is going to do for me is add stress. blah. i already have enough stress with GIRLS! they fucking get in my head and fuck with it. i hate it. sometimes.
muahahha. yeah, fuck that shit. i go back to school on monday. HOW FUCKING WONDERFUL. but at least it's almost over. six more months and i'll be out of high school left alone to wonder the world. yum.

DO IT DO IT DO IT
What would you do if:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

I have a reseach paper due on monday on the Montgomery bus boycotts and I haven't written anything =/
I'm kinda worried that I may not finish because on top of that I have to type my autobiographical narrative and memorize my lines for a scene I'm doing!! Why must I wait until the last minute to do everything?? Ugh. In other words I watched House Of Wax last night.. It was GOOD. Haha I loved Paris Hilton her death scene was the best =)

So its been 3 Days since you left and i miss you like crazy!

So on friday i go on the school field trip to Disneyland.. i get to school and like no one is there so i have my dad drope me off over by the gym because i saw a bunch of people there, butit turns out to be the school wrestling team getting ready to go to marvista.. but luckily a bunch more people that are going to disneyland start showing up where i am and it turns out that we are in the wrong place because when matt and i walked down to the pavillion we saw all these cars in the side parking lot. when we walk over there the PTA lady is like going crazy cuz she cant open up the gate.. I was trying to get her attention to aske her a question ans she would just ignore me! and when i finally did she yelled at me and told me to ask her later! All i was trying to ask her is if matt could go on my bus because they put us on completly different buses.. So i finally talk to another guy that was in charge but like by that time he was already on the other bus getting hit on by some slutty girl from my spanish class.. so he got on my bus and the drive up to disneyland was pretty good.. when we got off the bus it started poring down rain so we ran to the shuttle cuz i sure didnt want to stand in the rain and wait for the next shuttle to come.. so once in disneyland kristy met up wih us and she matt and i walk away from then group not knowing what was going to happen the next time i met up with them.. so after we pretty much had ridden all the rides we had just gotten off the indiana jones ride when i see andrew alaxa and mitch after that the whole day pretty much went to shit i have never experience so much shit blow up in my face in a long time.. and to make matters worse i was socked cold and crying! So much for it being the happiest place on earth..

The gang and i are at the library right now "researching" for our historical paper im doing mine on im doing mine on Early american women Poets.. Hopefully ill get credit in drama!

So lately ive been playing GTA san andreas and i was talking to jordan and kevin about it and they said that i dont look like the type of girl that plays video games.. hmmmm..

Oh man im so excited im going to Disneyland.. but im really worried that its not going to be FUN cuz of things that happened with some people.. but maybe im wrong cuz isnt it the happiest place on earth?

sayonara





I<3MaTTwiest.







Hello kelly.

well alots has happened since my last entry i got my new GUITAR christmas and NEw years passed and im back in school, and i got NEW shoes!

So last night i did NOTHING for my birthday.. but i did get like a million calls <333.. all in all it was a great 17th..

So today is CASSANDRA's birthday! She called me yesterday and was talking to my mom for like 15 minutes!

MATT FORGOT...


IM NEVER GOING TO FORGIVE YOU!!!.. hehe.. i <3 you

TODAYS my BIRTHDAY yay!!!its been going GREAT! i got ballons! and um REALLY cool shit.

So today during 2nd period i broke ambers eggg! oh man she was so pissed! i was so scared so i made my dad hard boil another egg and bring it to school! haha so i took it to her and she was like ok!!!

but yeah imm out

hi michel....

Soo Im about to go on break and theres nothing to dooooooooooo........ i should get a job, but im SO lazy ill do more bad than good.. but yeah nothing really new ive just been thinkin alot and im happy about how things are now..

BAmm... Ahhhhhh break is coming... · whole weeks of doing nothing, going to shows, and hanging out with friends...
Well i visited bonite on monday it was pretty coool i saw everyone and yeah i miss it... i met a kid too he´s so cute he´s name is oscar.. but hes a young one..
Otay´s cool thou today Cynthia, kevin, jordan and i went out an pan handlededede ( or how ever u spell it)... well um yeah T.S.O.L tomorrow... or movies.. or other stuff .. well i gots to goooooooooooo

I got my grades on friday.. i did really well except for my drama teacher C-... Omar called me after school that day apperantly he and Kamila got into another arugument.. there so much drama with them.. its funny.. Yesterday was John and kelly's party but i didnt go... i didnt really feel up to it.. ive been really tiered lately.. so i went to the movies with Susan we sae the exsorcist.. then big alyssa picks us up and we drove around for a while... im going to hilcrest next weekend to get my shoes... i cant wait!!